dh is emotionally abusive. He doesn't care about my feelings, well-being, and is controlling in subtle ways. He is very career and money oriented and a bit manipulative. He has treated me me with hardly any respect or care.
I am at a point where I have to make decision. I think I have also lost love for him. Still feel some affection for him. I think I kind of know what to do.
I have another problem. I have no support. I come from broken home. Mum is nice but can't offer any support or guidance. Each time I talk to her, she keeps giving mixed responses. She says things like- after she spoke to me she was so worried, she spent whole night thinking about what to do but had no advice. I feel guilty discussing anything with her.
I don't eat to stress her. I have a sister, who is quite judgemental, a bit bossy and always right. She has been quite rude to me even in my difficult moments, so I avoid talking to her. She tells my mum things like she worries so much about me that she couldn't enjoy a meal outside with her dh. When I tell my mum she insults me, mum says she gets a little impatient but means well. They are willing to help me with money but I don't want that.
I have very few friends. I had lived in different countries, and lost contact with old friends.They have all moved on with families and new friends and live 1000s of miles away. I had a friend here, whom I supported in her difficult times, but she doesn't like to talk about problems. She has become quite a party, social person. We are in late 30s.
I worry when dh and I will split, I will have no one to talk to.