I just need someone to help me get my head around everything-
me a DP have been together 7 years and have a 3 year old little boy.
Hes never been one to go out, or lie and ive never caught him even speaking to another woman before- now the last few months i can feel something is up, hes working late, hes more concerned about his appearance etc.. all the textbook signs and i ask and ask and he calls me a nutcase! then one day he comes home and tells me hes been texting his best friends wife.. and the best friend has found out (only reason hes told me.. PRICK) so its all kicked off on both sides and they promised that that all it was, i just wouldn't drop it and managed to get it out of him they had met up for drinks etc.. then i manage to discover they had sex.. not once but 3 times!! got hold of his phone bill and see the extent they where talking to each other, it was excessive! so he promises to cut all ties, she refuses to speak to me ( we where friends before) and then he decides he wants to leave me.. how suspicious! then to cut a long shitty story short they get caught together AGAIN... as soon as her husband found out she switched on my DP blamed it all on him and claimed he harassed her, flattered her, wouldn't leave her alone etc.. DP begged for months to get me back and for the sake of our little boy i am trying o forgive... leading up to this betrayal we where never having sex and rowing a fair bit.. i know that's no excuse but that's his reason! KNOB
Its been a few months now and i just cant drop it.. I'm so paranoid about everything and my self esteem is in the gutter.. am i wasting my time killing myself to hold my family together?