I've had the shittiest year so far and it's only just begun. Been with dp 3 years this Monday and was really looking forward to celebrating, I'd made him an incredibly thoughtful gift and things had been better than ever lately, we've been through a lot.
Today I found out he's been seeing an 18 year old behind my back and buying weed while my 4 year old daughter has been out with him. I'm beyond disgusted and angry. He's got form for this, a year ago he had an affair with a girl whilst also sleeping with others that were between 17-20. I let it go because we were very on and off back then but also because I only found out about the other girls this last November, I thought it was just the 1 affair for a whole year.
He's 32 and sleeping with teenagers in a park! His step kids from his last relationship are that age!
Worst thing is I got pregnant and had an abortion in January and while I was going through the worst time of my life he was out with her, not using protection.
I know he has to go, I can't be hurt anymore but I'm so frightened how I'll cope. I have no friends and family around here and I'm an agoraphobic that can't work but isn't deemed well enough for ESA. I'm screwed.
I just need some hand holding, my whole life is falling apart and I don't feel like I have any energy left after everything that's happened in the last few years.