How the hell to move on

[Justbreathing]

I know guess I know the only answer is time, but I cannot seem to deal with this overwhelming pain that I will not have the person I love in my life anymore because he doesn't want to be with me. All those dreams you had, all that time you had together. Little jokes you want to send them. Things you know they would love. I know we have to accept others choices, but I don't think I have ever been very good at letting go. I mean I am terrible at letting go. And I need to this time. I am not 25 anymore with time on my side to wallow endlessly.

I wonder if my ex feels that way too? He thinks I'm wrong for him, or he's wrong for me. Who knows. Today I noticed he unblocked me which left me after 3 weeks. Anyway, I'm focusing on myself. I feel stronger today. I need to be a better person for myself first.

But trying, I completely understand! I feel the same way about mornings and nights have been easier for me. At the start especially I was in bed the earliest I've ever been and welcomed being asleep!

Sorry Been stuck working all day

Hi hound, today's been ok, I've been working away and that's helped. I have been forced to spend my time with colleagues
I miss chit chatting
It's hard, really hard to think I won't ever speak to him again.
I can't sleep. Christ what a mess.
Cant stand. The only thing I would say Is that actions speak louder than words.
Mine told me lots of things and his actions actually made me realise that he didn't feel the way I did. So he's telling you something subtly
I think you need a to deal with your insecurities and also why you don't feel that he assuages those feelings. ( I'm So good at dealing with other people's problems, can't deal with my own!)

Mornings are grim. Really grim