I've posted often under this and a different username about my heartbreak after finding out my STBXH cheated on me. The pain of the infidelity soon became secondary as I discovered he was a Narc. For 6 months it's felt like I have been on an emotional rollercoaster and I've felt I've been living on the edge of my sanity.
I don't want to give out identifying details but today I had to meet with him. The reasons don't matter to the post. I was shaking, it was too short notice to arrange for someone to accompany me. So I pulled up my big girl pants and went on my own.
I got through it. I came home and cried my heart out. I sat on my sofa and as I cried I realised that I was warm - the sun in my new flat was shining on me through the windows. It's spring, winter is over. And then I realised that was true for me as it is for nature - my winter is over and my spring is here. I feel at peace for the first time in 6 months.