DH left me two weeks ago. Married 11 months, together for 9 years. Two DD's who are currently living two days with me, five with him that everyone's happy with. It's been coming for a long time as we've been on and off for going on ten years but he made the decision to leave and left with all his stuff in the middle of the night while I was asleep. No note, nothing. I found out when I woke up and all of his things were gone. He'd found a place behind my back, set up a room for DD's etc a few weeks beforehand. That hurt, he's a bastard and all of the other nasty things I want to say but I really want to be strong this time. No taking him back when he's done having his fun. No drunk texts or calls. No more being weak. With all he's done it looks like he's done for good. We're civil for the children's sake but our texts are one sentence questions and a one word response and when I have them we're friendly but to the point. It's a very civil changeover for them even if I want to scream.
I've scrubbed the house top to bottom to remove any trace of him. I've been out for dinner and drinks with my friends. I live alone with my dog, attend university three days a week as a mature student and work part time in a club until 5/6am three nights a week to make ends meet. I still find myself with lots of time by myself and I know that should be a good thing but I'm so lonely and I don't feel like I'm moving forward. I feel like I'm stuck in misery with occasional bursts of me putting on a smile to attempt to be social.
I just have so many thoughts and questions. When do you take your wedding and engagement rings off? When do you stop feeling empty? How do you stop yourself contacting them when you're so low it's physically painful?