Had to NC.
So, it's been 10 months since I left my abusive relationship (I can't believe I left after 9 years !!). I've been looking after myself, completed the freedom programme, started running, enjoying my 6 year old DD and finally looking out of the window, which looked quite bleak and finally I think to myself " I can control my life". I do get some sadness about the relationship I had with DDs dad and question how am I gonna support DD, guide her without her dad in the picture. But I guess this is natural.
Currently, I'm doing some part time work (not a long term thing just need it as experience for the career I want to go into). So my coworkers seem ok, I'm loving the job, everything is ok. Though ! 2 months ago, a coworker who works in our building but in a different department ( I think he was covering for someone) came into ours and when we first saw each other we just locked eyes. It was like love at first sight 
(it wasn't I bet but that's how I felt).
So I developed a crush, I was shocked, I mean how can I have a crush ?!! I was with my ex for 9 years and no way did I have any sort of crush towards another man, I didn't even look at men ! I was also a bit sad as if I was forgetting my ex ( I know, I know. But anyway, he was only in our department for an hour and I did notice him looking at me, turning away when I looked etc. But then he went and I as I work part time, by then I finished and went home.
After that I didn't see him in our department again as like I said, he was covering for someone and after New Years I totally forgot about him. Till when I showed up at work in the New year and he was there, someone told me that they moved him into this department. I dunno, every time his near me he gets uncomfortable, I haven't shown him that I liked him. I'm really professional and besides he can have a girlfriend for all I know. There was a time we were alone in the office and he didn't say anything to me so I figured that I'm being deluded into me thinking that he may like me so I let go...also I then switched to another department so I didn't see him after that.
So last week ! He was doing something in my department, which I now was working in and he finally spoke to me ! 
He wanted to me to help with something and he was asking me...work related things like how I got into the job, what interested and we started conversing. The whole time though, he was acting nervous, he was accidentally dropping things on the floor, he made a few mistakes.
Though to be honest Mumsnetters, I'm not sure if I'm over thinking this ? Maybe it's my imagination ? I'm thinking of letting go of this crush as I don't want to go down the same route as what I did with my ex abusive partner. I was thinking of asking him out...or waiting a little bit longer for him to hint something as I don't want to embarrass myself in this newish job. Though I'm thinking maybe it's better to just concentrate on DD now and start dating later ? It's been 10 months since my last relationship and I don't know if I'm fully "healed" yet from my past abuse or maybe I'm holding onto this crush because I want to forget the pain of my ex ?
I dunno. What do you mum netters think ?
Oh I'm 24 by the way