Things have come to a head recently between me and my dh. I very nearly ended our marriage and was really angry at his treatment of me over the years. He has persuaded me to give things another go and I have agreed albeit reluctantly.
What I can't understand about my behaviour though is this. I went from being furious with him and myself. Absolutely positive about wanting to break up one day (with very good reasons that I won't go into on this thread) and then shortly after resuming sexual relations with him. I have gone from having a fairly low libido to the other end of the spectrum. I have been taking the lead (something I rarely do) and even pushing myself to offer to do more erm, things that I wouldn't normally be up for. Why am I doing this? Is there something in me that wants to show him what he'd be missing if we split? Is it a bit of a honeymoon period after a near separation? I'm actually a bit confused about my own behaviour to be honest.
I think i'm going to seek out some counselling for myself to make sense of it but was wondering if anyone has gone through this after a turbulent time?