Ah, it's a difficult one. I've namechanged as I don't want it following me.
I finally spilt up with a man (my choice) id been seeing for 4 years last July. I was so done at that point that I didn't even cry as I knew it was the right choice. He was an alcoholic and at times emotionally abusive. However (and please don't scoff) he was also wonderful and we had some really good times together. His alcoholism was the main issue and he had had a hard life.
I did love him but I was being dragged down. He has since moved to the other side of the world.
Even though I have been dating again I still feel a bit sad most days and I do still feel that I love him. Although I know it can't ever be (and won't). I feel like I missed the grieving process of the breakup as I didn't let it in and consequently now I'm stuck in some odd limbo.
Has anyone else ever felt this way? It's coming up a year soon since it all fell apart and I want to move on.