I feel so bad after trying to hold on to guy I met online . I have been lovebimbed for months untill I gave on . I know silly me . Than ghosted for weeks on and off all that fake love was away and was just acknowledging me sometimes. I have done something stupid and try to come and see him after weeks of promises on weeks ignoring me . And got nowhere . He wasn't happy so I just said thanks and good luck . But I feel like someone cut my heart open. I know im better off as he is suffering from series mental health issues I suspect bipolar but I feel cheated as all he ever said to me was a lie . I'm not amazing and I don't deserve better . I can't eat or sleep feel like shit