NC for this as I'm quite embarrassed by how I'm feeling.
Dp and I are due to get married in June. Just a small do of immediate family and friends.
We are also due to start IVF next month (both diagnosed with fertility issues last September. It has been the worst six months of my life)
I am currently seriously struggling to cope with it all. I thought getting married would give us something good to focus on in the midst of all the IVF bullshit, but it's actually doing the total opposite. I'm feeling even worse than I thought I would about the IVF and it's spilling over into the wedding. I'm not looking forward to it at all and just keep thinking about all the things that might go wrong/how stressful it will be.
People keep telling me what a happy time it must be for me, but truth be told I feel mildly suicidal. I suffer from depression/anxiety and my Gp weaned me off my ads about four months ago for ttc purposes. I'm really struggling without them.
Every morning I wake up and my first thought is "I don't have a baby. I might never have a baby" Then I just start worrying about the IVF/wedding and on it goes all day long.
Really feel like I want to postpone wedding, but not sure if I'm self sabotaging. I've had a lot of therapy that has uncovered that I don't feel entitled to all the things other people are. Perhaps I just feel I don't deserve to get married/have a baby?
Sitting on couch now not knowing how I'm going to face the day. I just feel so utterly shit
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IVF and wedding. Struggling to cope and don't know what to do
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whatthef30 · 20/02/2017 07:44
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