Hi
On the brink of separation though I am very scared to take the final leap. Have lived without affection for many years and had sex 3 times last year, always instigated by me.
I have given up now - not only due to that, there are quite a few other reasons too.
Am now 48 and have spent the last few years that my fear of divorce and of my kids all choosing to live with my h (hope not) compensated for my lack of any sex or affection.
Now that I think I probably am going to have to take the horrible plunge and to through the hell of divorce (H is not easy), I can feel myself wanting to re-join the land of the living. Except that I look in the mirror and am not convinced that anybody is going to want me.
Should I accept this? I feel angry by how much of H's crap about me I accepted and believed, all the while I was longing for him to touch me.