I'm been involved with a man for about a year I say involved because i can't think of another word for it.
He lives about 2 hours from me near to my cousin who I visit regularly that's how I met him. We have only ever met in the pub except one weekend which we spent together last summer.
He is scared of a relationship andndinds it really hard to open up although we do talk more now. He's got a very fucked up family and is basically the glue that holds things together when it's all crashing down.
He drinks a lot as in all weekend. I do go out but not every weekend like he does.
I know he's wrong for me he can't be involved in my children's life I wouldn't expose them to his drinking and if he isn't good for them he isn't good for me. He promises me nothing but I still want him. I know it's fucked up. If he wanted me he'd be there for me and he has never once prioritised me over anything. I need to tell him it's over but I'm scared that the breakthrough is almost here and he'll want me as much as I want him.