I had been a 5 months no contact with my ex apart form I had to reply to some emails about bills etc. but I didn't talk about anything else and kept it business like. A couple of weeks ago he randomly calls me out of the blue. I let it ring out because I was surprised and didn't know what to do. I eventually decide to text him back 4 days later asking what's up. He replied saying he just wanted to see how I'm doing. I said 'good thanks u?'. He said okay and mentioned about some minor issue he has. I just said 'oh ok well good luck.' Then a couple of hours later he writes again asking if I'm still doing my this creative hobby of mine (I'm paranoid to specify what in case someone sees this but it's just something standard and normal) and saying how he thinks it's really really good. I didn't really know what to say as I felt kinda weird about talking to him again.
You see he broke up with me, no explanation at first for days just left. He eventually gave me a small explanation begrudgingly but then carries on ignoring me. I messaged him a month later asking how he was and just making light conversation. The goes on for a little bit but the ball was left in his court. that was 5 months ago. So I just feel kinda weird messing him back and forth now as I feel like he's not interested and I'm a creep/desperate again or something. Anyway so fast forward back to the other week and I didn't reply until a week later. I just thought I'd better respond but I didn't want to carry on the conversation really. So I said 'not really. anyway i'm glad you're okay'.... And then I mentioned some boring stuff to do with bills etc. to assure him again I'm sorting it out. So it was pretty clear it was the end of the conversation really although I tried my best not to rude at the same time. So two weeks later and I haven't heard anything from him.
I'm now wondering,
Did I come across too rude and stand offish that it's hurt/annoyed him?
Or was it not even what I said and how long I took replying that would have been why he hasn't contacted me again?
It's just messing with my head and making me think maybe he's annoyed and I should call him?
If I'm honest I do kinda want him back as I still love him. But I dunno. I just want him to call me again really to satisfy my curiosity more than anything so I can just move on after that. As the fact he tried to call but we haven't actually spoken on the phone and only had the briefest text exchange feels kinda like loose ends or something is making me think of him again. So I am actually considering calling him even though I don't want to. Just so I can stop thinking about it. But I don't want to be the one to call. I can't handle the anxiety. I want him to call me but I know he won't any time soon and I'm sick of hoping he'll call again like i was before.