I've been with my partner 7.5 years we have four children. I have anxiety disorder and a history of depression which of late is very current.
When our first baby was 6 weeks old I was diagnosed with PND. I also found out my partner had been cheating. He denies it all.
There was sexts on his phone, missed calls, especially when he was "on a night out" and when I asked him to stop talking to her and delete her number he lied. He told me he wasn't speaking to her anymore when I still found texts and calls from her.
It eventually subsided partly because his phone broke and ended up with a new number and had no other way to contact her.
Being the emotional wreck I was and suffering from mental health issues I forgave him straight away no arguments and did everything I could to keep him happy and please him as I Blamed myself.
Fast forward a few months, he starts talking to another girl at work and asks me if they can swap numbers he thought he should ask because "I might not like it" given the past situation. I obviously told him no i couldnt trust him. I was still having panic attacks when he would go on a night out.
I didnt want to be on my own and i was overwhelmed with fear so i stayed still and we "worked through it"
Fast forward again to my third baby, while pregnant i found saved pictures from websites (iykwim) which he thought wasnt a problem and like the cheating i was told to get over it.
Fast forward to now and despite it being several years and much hard work i still cant get over it all. I am unable to talk about it with him he dismisses it as being in the past and over and done with.