Turning myself inside out

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My partner and I have been struggling since I was 6 months pregnant. Our son is almost 2 and a half. We've been going for couples counselling since September. Im struggling to see any sign of him trying to change and he says the same about me. I do think I've been trying to work on which issues I raise me generally take ownership of my own anxieties and self doubt that went out of control after son was born. I am wondering what other people's experiences of couples counselling has been and what worked? I do want things to get better but fear we're too different / too much trust has been eroded. Turning myself inside out trying to work out how to make things feel easier without just subjugating all my needs and feelings.

I would go for counselling on your own, tbh. Would that be possible? You won't work out your own needs in a room with your partner, you just won't.

I am wondering what other people's experiences of couples counselling has been and what worked?

It absolutely helped me clarify that our marriage was over. We were totally unsuited and it was really helpful to look at our relationship from an outside viewpoint and realise that I wasn't being a quitter, I was just stopping throwing more time into a black hole of a relationship which would never make either of us happy.

Thanks for responding. I have been to therapy look at some things but reached a point where I couldn't do much more on my own when the source of my distress was the relationship. It was helpful for working out the source of the differences between us. I think I need some more so will get something organised. I am struggling to decide if this is a bad relationship that just needs to end, whether there's hope or whether I am just bad at relationships.

Hi again, how's it going?

I do sympathise with you. Could you live apart for a while to see if that helps clarify things?

Thanks for checking in. Had a much better few days and some more productive discussions. Hoping we can keep it up as we actually both want the same things. Living apart isn't really an option and I think it would just increase the distance between us when we actually need to be working harder on being a team. Definitely going to get a referral for me though. Take care yourself xx

And you. Hope you have a good weekend.