No contact with past

[sadatchristmas]

I'm feeling a bit down. I've got too much time to think go on FB.

I am NC with my toxic family apart from when they very occasionally drop by. I have loads of cousins and their babies but my mother is the gatekeeper and I'm the black sheep. Stupidly I've been looking on FBand feel so rejected and left out.

I have only really kept in touch with friends made in last 10 years. Before that I flitted from friend to friend and made some rather undesirable friends in late terns early 20s.

I was bullied at senior school so haven't kept in touch and primary was long ago.

Feeling sad and lonley even though I have a wonderful DH and a big wonderful family of my own.

FB not helping. I did contact an old friend who friended me, looked at my account I guess then unfriended me.

I dunno just makesme sad.

Anyone?

Could you try no fb for January or something , sorry no other ideas

May need to

Get rid of fb you were fine before that it's toxic and horrid

Block anyone you might be tempted to look at on FB and that way it will be an extra level of hassle to peek and they'll never show up on mutual acquaintances' pages or suggestions.

A gatekeeper/black sheep dynamic is going to be intractable. Look forward and try to be happy