I've posted in Alcohol Support before but NC for this.
I'll be brief.
DP and me together 3 years. He is an alcoholic and I've had enough. Too much stress with his alcoholism + his failing business + a third trimester loss of our baby earlier this year. The sadness and pain of losing a baby so late in pregnancy is beyond words. We have sold our house and car to make ends meet to keep his business afloat. I just pray and wish for him to pull something out of the bag and for us to be financial stable again but nothing is guaranteed in life.
So basically: financial stress, baby loss stress, and alcoholism stress. Is it too much for one relationship to handle?
I want to leave but we share Ddog together who I don't want to rehome, he was my best friend during my grieving period. Dog daycare is £500 a month and I won't be able to pay that on my own.
I don't work so will need to find a job. Will also be sad to say goodbye to DSS (11) who we have every second weekend.
I'm 30, DP mid. 40s.
How do I even begin to broach the subject of splitting? I'm scared he will just storm off mid-conversation and run to a bar and then probably top himself or at least threaten to top himself ( he has done this before).
It will take me a while to find a full time job. Do I ask him for money to help me out? What if he says no? I have no family in the U.K. to help me or many very close friends whose sofa I can crash on for a few nights.
Please help me. I don't even know where to begin. I just know I'm unhappy and I don't think I love him anymore.
We were also meant to be TTC for another child so saying I no longer want to TTC will be part of the conversation, obviously.