Been married 6yr together 15. Got 4 kids. My eldest 2 are from a previous relationship. Youngest 2 are hubbys. Anyway he's never been one for talking about stuff or showing much feeling, yet recently due to the rapid amount of family members dyeing 4 gone in the last year. Iv realised that I'm still waiting on the hubby to actually tell me he loves me. Due to recent upset at times iv just wanted a cuddle or something but no. Nothing. Then iv also found my self feeling guilty when ever I buy my self a food type of treat. The hubby is rather fussy and at times food shopping is a nightmare trying to find things that he will eat, any way tonight I had to nip out and he asked me to pick up something for him, 3 supermarkets later iv not managed to find anything that he will like, so I picked up something else. Only when I get home he's now gone in a huff cause iv not got him anything, it's now getting to the point where I don't eat anymore due to constantly feeling guilty for finding my self something but not him. What on earthh is wrong with me,, there has come to the point where I'm finding my self feeling really low, to where I could happily walk out and drive my car into a brick wall, cause they would probably not even notice I'm missing until one of em wants something. I love my hubby and my family but At times I actually wonder if the feelings mutual, I feel like that I can never do anything right, I'm ashamed of my self on how I look and think that they would all be better of without me