I feel like I'm losing my mind

[macwoods]

For the past week I feel like I lost all since or what's real. I'm 30 weeks pregnant and I have a 2 year old from a previous relationship. My ex has made my life hell. Broke into my apartment. Called cps on me twice, serve me with court papers stating I'm unfit mother. So fast forward to now, we're joint custody and it's driving me mad. He texts constantly and he stalks me. He moved next door to my apartment and my new boyfriend gets upset every time he text me. Now with my new boyfriend who I'm planning to marry has said awful things to me. Just mean blunt cruel things that he apologize and all but it doesn't take the pain away. So now I just tired I work over 40 hours a week hardly sleep or eat and I'm stressed out that a mental hospital sounds like vacation especially after my son comes home from his dad house and he acts out. Sorry I wrote a lot. I'm just very lonely I have no friends and family to talk to and every time I tried to tell my boyfriend he feels that he not doing enough to make me happy and I'm always negative. So I gotta suck it up and say I'm great even though I'm slowly losing my mind

Sounds like you could do with talking to somebody. So you have access to counseling? So, have you considered mediation to deal with you ex. You really don't need this stress now. Hugs to you.

These men are causing your stress and anxiety. You need to work out why you have become involved with two men, on separate occasions, who abuse you and make your life miserable. This isn't a good situation for you, your two year old or your unborn baby.
Seriously, get yourself down to your GP for a counselling referral. Buy some relationship self help books to begin educating yourself on relationships to uncover what led you into such destructive relationships and detach as far as you can from all the nastiness emanating from these two specimens. And don't worry about court orders. Your ex is playing power games because he knows exactly how to hurt you. Don't let him see he's succeeding.
Keep calm, stay strong and consider going it alone with your little ones. You don't need all this nastiness and negativity in your life. You deserve much better o/p. As do your children.

I went to a therapist and all it did was cause more stressed. I been very very stressed out. I can't move from my location because it will be violating the court paper. I'm always tired and all I do it work trying to pay off loans from court and when I was unemployed. I don't do anything for me. I'm drained and I feel very irritated

Please take things one step at a time. First and foremost you need to feel a bit better before you start reading self help books etc. I think going to the gp is a good idea. Why are you not eating properly? How are you sleeping? Do you have aby friends or family around who can help you at all. I do think you need to think about why you are attracting men who are not very nice to you but first off you just need to take care of yourself s bit better so that you have the mental and physical energy you need. I was on a terrible state of exhaustion and upset at o e point and I found a short course of tablets helpful just do I could relax d s stop worry so much and to help me sleep- that can be a secret between you and your gp none else needs to know. You might find Counselling helpful when you are feeling a bit better. Is there anyone who can help/comfort you?

Sorry about the typos. I hope you understood. You do sound incredibly strong under all your anxiety. You feel like you are not coping but YOU ARE COPING.