I'm 30 years old and have a lovely four year old from what was an unplanned pregnancy. I do adore my son but because of the circumstances and maybe my own immaturity and mental health issues, it has been a difficult few years and in some ways I feel a bit ambivalent about being a mother. I realise now I had so much growing up to do myself and just wish things had been different, but I think I'm kind of getting there now and it's all starting to look more positive.
Anyway I'm not with my son's father anymore and I'm just wondering about the future in terms of relationships. Most of the people around my age will probably be looking to get married and have children of their own but I'm not convinced I'd ever want to have another one or that I'd really cope that well with it all again.
Is it possible that I'll change my mind? I really feel happy with just one but I'd hate to disappoint a future partner especially as anyone I'm with would obviously have to be the type to like children. I just wonder who I'd really be compatible with. My last relationship (son's father) was an older man who was so set in his ways and stifling, I'm not sure I want to go down that road again. No idea what the future will hold obviously but it feels as if I'm in an awkward demographic iyswim as I don't want more children. I'm pretty happy with being single anyway so not sure why I'm overthinking this so much but I wanted to ask, anyone been in a similar position?