I briefly dated a guy and we decided that it wasn't really working out as we didn't really have decent chemistry. Since then, we've become really close friends. A few weeks ago, we started kissing again etc but then we had a talk about where things lie. I said I'd like to take it further and he was really honest and said that, although he loved me as a friend and wished it could be more he really didn't have feelings for me like that. I said I understood and the important thing was that we didn't lose the friendship we have.
Now, things have gone back to being friends. We're both online dating and we tell each other everything. Last night, he had a 4th date with a girl and it went fantastically and he said he was excited about it.
This has hit me like a truck. I couldn't sleep last night and can't really think about anything else. I didn't realise that I'd really fallen for him before this.
Now what? I know that we'll never be together but can we get to a place where we can just have friendship? I genuinely do want him to be happy and get to a place where I can spend time with him (and his partner if he has one) without feeling jealous. His friendship means a lot to me.
I think I know the response I'm going to get - back away and take him out of your life. But I really can't stand the thought of that. Has anyone else been in a similar situation and pulled themselves back to a lovely friendship?