DH and I have had a lot going on over the last couple of months. We have both had problems in out workplaces and have been hugely stressed as a result, to the point where I have had a string of interviews for other jobs and finally have a new one, which I'll begin in 2 weeks.
My Aunt, who was like a mother to me growing up, is terminally ill in hospital and so all my spare time has been spent going to see her.
we recently moved house (literally just 2 weeks ago) and we've been really busy and stressed in relation to that.
Things are now beginning to settle down a little and I'm desperate to catch up with friends as it's been weeks. We have young DCs too, so having any leisure time has been quite frankly impossible.
Last night, I competent blew my top at DH after he re-packed one of the boxes I'd unpacked to empty out a drawer for some of my DCS toys! I was furious and in a rage, threw a toy at him l. I've never behaved like this before and feel so guilty as he's under so much pressure too, but it's taught me that I'm in need of a break and a bit of leisure time. I haven't even thought about the Xmas shopping and all of that still needs doing too!
However, I've no time for a break, as we currently have no cooker in the new house and we're set to fit a new kitchen this weekend OURSELVES! I've mentioned to DH that I think we get someone in to do it, that we've never fitted a kitchen before and we need a rest from all that has been going on. But DH is adamant that we are doing it ourselves. This means no beak. It means I will be solely looking after the DCS for the next 2 weekends which means no break and no Xmas shopping.
I think my outburst last night was a product of all this pressure we're under. I understand that DH wants to do the kitchen himself to save money, because he enjoys manual work etc etc. But I really need a break. We have no relatives close by to take care of the children, do it literally means me finding things to do with them on my own for the next 2 weekends away from the house and no kitchen for much longer than it would have been had we got a professional in to fit it.
DH won't hear any of it and snaps when I suggest we don't do it ourselves and have a break. I don't want to start being snappy with the children, as I already have with DH. I feel guilty already, as he really doesn't deserve it.
ideas?