I am so miserable

[Spagblog]

Dh has been moaning at me for months now to start bringing a wage in.
He blathers on about doing photography and earning money from that, and things that this is "helping me".

Recently I have had three opportunites to do some photography for people.
I was feeling okay about the small amount of money I was earning off it, but he has just blasted me about charging too little, and spending too much time on it.
He chuntered on about petrol, electricity, time spent, printing costs and made me feel about this small (ant sized okay).

I had to hang up (he is away) in tears. I feel so completely worthless and crap at this.
Why bother, eh?

I'm assuming that dh's plan emcompasses how childcare is to be incorporated into the plan, along with a business strategy for absorbing the costs? No? Is he just talking crap, perhaps?

(Said with sympathy, I just don't get his viewpoint, he wants you to earn money but isn't prepared to put up with any of the side-effects).

Childcare is okay term times, although how many weddings are going to happen during a week?
How many kids portraits am I going to get done during school time?

I don't know why he feels he has to piss on my parade.
I KNOW I don't charge enough, but feel I need to get some more work before I have enough self esteem to raise the prices.

He also moaned that the two sittings I am doing tomorrow, I am taking the kids on.
Well, who else is going to have them in a half term?
The sittings are friends of mine and they don't mind!

Spagblog, why does he think you need help?

Spag, just read your 2nd post, please just tell him to shove his comments up his jacksy.

He thinks that he is being encouraging and supportive of me.
I do want to earn money for myself and would love to do it by taking pictures.

However, I see it more as a hobby, whereas he wants me to give him projections of earnings in the first year.

so sad that you feel down and on your own.

Put it down to a bad day and hope tomorrow is a little brighter.

Thee are only a few who can make photography into a growth and prosperous business, most is down to luck and timimg! The rest of us have very boring jobs!

Thanks.

We had an argument over the weekend because he only comes back at the weekend and I had to spend some of that time editing photos.

He'll blow his top when he finds out that the client is only buying three small prints.
LOL
shit, I give up caring