Overlly Paranoid Partner

[user1478556924]

I have currently been with my partner for two years, on and off, as its been rather rocky at times.
When we first got together I thought everything was perfect, we were both happy, content and trusted each other. But as the time progressed he started acting off with me and was very cold towards me, and I never understood why. After a few months he started making me feel pretty worthless and disrespected, although I never gave him a reason to be like that with me. I almost treated him like a king and felt much love for him. He would constantly compare me against his other ex's and I would have constant reminders of how perfect and great they were, and that I was nothing like them. And to top it off he would contantly suggest that he could easily go out and get with another girl, and say how much he would give to go back with one of ex's. Dispite putting up with these constant coments, I stayed with him because I adored him so much, only to come home from work with a devastating text message saying that he had broken up with me and knew why... Obviously I did not know why. The situation left me absolutely heart broken, as it was my first ever proper relationship and first ever true love, this me psychologically unwell and unstable, as it was an unexpected happening. I lost so much confidence and lost myself. A month later after breaking up I get a phone call off my partner asking me to see him, and because of my mental state nothing would stop me from seeing him, because I dearly missed him and morned for him. We talked and discussed getting back together again, I was so delighted, and happy, but sadly fooled and tricked, as after a 'night' at his house, the next day he text me again saying that it was not what he wanted. I felt used and disgusted with him, as he just told me what I wanted to hear so that I would jump into bed with him...
Anyway about a year went by and after finally getting over the devastating relationship news (which took a long time) and finding myself again, he calls... Again. obviously at this point my state of mind is different and I am more cautious. But he wanted to start over again, so I agreed to, but to take it slow, because I didn't want to get hurt again. As time went on again it seemed nice and was going great, until the accusations arrived. I am contantly being accused of being with another guy called Jimmy Choo... Although everyone has said that I am doing nothing with this imaginary guy, he still will not believe me. Its got to a point where I cannot breathe or do anything without him accusing me of something. Examples; I look at someone, then I know them. I go to work, then I am up to no good, even though I rush to come straight home. Apparently, according tp him when we went away, I was sleeping with someone in the hotel room even though I was with him... and there's too many others to even write.
He also told me recently that a girl, who was supposedly his 'friend', that he would invite round for movies and cuddles, whilst he was with me, that he has lept with her more than once. Not only that recentlly I have found out that he has caught an sti from someone 'years ago' but never ever has told me he's had them, and now strangely they have re-appeared. He is at home all day whilst I am at work or university, and does not text me for hours, then when I get home and ask him what has he been up to, he just replies with sleeping. He now also has a lock on his phone, that I do not know, and I don't have one and he's always on mine reading harmless messages. Does this look suspicious, or is it just me? I feel like I am going mad and can't do anything right.
The worse feeling I have recently is anxiety, as he has shown signs of aggression and recently hurt me physically. It scares me because I never thought he would do such a thing and I know its not him. I always blame myself for his actions. What shall I do?

[thevulvabrigade]

There is a thread referring to this one;

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/2774882-My-relationship

[Isthisusernamefree]

Wtf. I for one was actually really worried for the OP and for her safety. Now I've no idea what's going on.

[pinkyredrose]

How did the Jimmy Choo thing start! Aside from that this 'relationship' is a joke, probably best to move on.