I am suffering from ltb limbo.
(He cheated -online dating which progressed to in the flesh. I'm pregnant. He's currently out of the house, I told him to get out although it is technically his house. I am sahm and therefore unable to get any kind of job until after baby arrives so at the momment financially dependent on him.)
I feel torn apart about how I am being manipulated by my circumstances and feel he thinks I'll just come round in time, whilst he buries his head in the sand about what I'm going through. 'Sorry, i didnt want us to split up, didn't mean to hurt you, i regret everything, if i could turn back clock......' , just doesn't cut it. Also it grates that he will put my feelings down to hormones and so is generally not taking serious responsibility for the pain he has caused. Frustration makes me angry, and in turn it is preventing me getting the true story. Since I still don't think he's told me the whole cheating thing, we are definitely over, since we can't move onto a new rebuilding effort until then. Anyway, very probably even when I do feel he has spilled everything out I'll not be able to be happy with him ever again. Sorry if this is a ramble, am exhausted, yet wide eyed awake. Sorry, five months on and still in shock really that this is my life. Just can't sleep.