EH H left, so painful, is this normal?

[Lazymazy1]

Things came to a head last night, although he's being nice I wasn't giving him a chance and he wouldn't take spare room to give us both space. He left.
I love him.
Keep telling myself I wasn't happy, I read everywhere he couldn't change so that's that.

My head is a mess. I'm worried he's done something awful. He's turned phone off etc.

Is this a normal reaction? thought I would just feel relief. This has completely thrown me.

Thank you, I am so consumed. Just want to know I've made the right decision

Yes wild and crazy mood swings, grief, crying, dangerous thoughts are all normal. I wished my husband was dead a week before he left I was so fed up with him and we hadn't had sex for 6 months plus but when he actually left I thought I'd die from the grief - it was nuts. This went on for three weeks and I had to see my GP for meds to calm my mood or I'd have gone mad.
Trouble is it's not just a husband you are losing, it is the future you might have had, growing old together, the kudos of being married, always someone there to go out with, dual salaries if you both work. All the many advantages of marriage that you have lost - it all suddenly piles onto you like a baseball bat around the back of the head. Separation seems to rip up all you have however bad and takes away all your future. It takes time to get used to the status quo and adjust and you will gradually adjust.
You dream about this day coming then when it comes you are totally unprepared for the feelings you have.
Trust me you will settle down, get help from your GP. the meds help kill the pain until you can cope with it, talk to people. Start doing little things. In a few weeks you will not recognise yourself and you will also be able to see more clearly how this happened and that it was for the best.
You will be able to work out a future for yourself.

Thank you karma and biker
I just never expected this. I need to understand this is normal . I have been with him whole of my adult life. This is so painful.

After a few weeks biker you knew you'd made the right decision?

I'm Updating...
My reaction was completely unexpected and made me doubt myself. I knew many others unfortunately in same situation who all felt relief after split.

Anyway, he left, told me he thinks MH issues are to blame , maybe I was too quick to judge the anger, the over working, the unkindness to EA when there maybe a different cause or reason.
So, after reflection of being away, he stopped blaming the world for his mistakes. He booked himself in for anger management. Started taking ADs , being more proactive. Kinder and calmer.
Will see how long it lasts. ..