Why am I always trying to please everyone - except myself?

[Sparkler1]

I never learn.

Have been feeling really ill for last two days and been off work.
It's my sister's birthday today and she had planned to go out for a meal. Before I was ill I said I would go.
My sis has had a really crap time of things over the years, relationships with boyfriends breaking up and she has suffered really low spells following them. She also admitted to having a very low self esteem recently.
I could really do without going out tonight but I don't want to let her down. There's only four of us going out and if I were to pull out I would worry about upsetting her.
DH is really cross that I am giving in to her like this and I know he is right.

Get dh to ring your sis and say that he is forbidding you to go out because you are too poorly. Now get off the computer and go to bed!

M Dh says I alwasy do things for others at my own expense. But I am a beleiver in treat others how you would like to be treated, sometimes that makes me a mug i spose...but better than the alternative. Don't get me wrong I'm no doormat, but you are who you are. Maybe do it tonight, but think it over before committing next time. ANd maybe drop some subtle hints about your needs next time a thing like this comes up.....

Thanks guys.
I went out but can't say I had a great time. All I could think about was being in bed - what a party pooper!
Am off work again today - feeling better than before but still drained.
I phoned in sick again today and the girl I assist sounded very P'd off with me. Realised when I came off the phone what day it was today. She normally has Thursdays off and obviously had to go in today as the work load had piled up. Now I'm feeling bad for not being there. What am I like? I'm only temporary staff as well.

............and before I get shouted at, just drinking a cup of coffee and I'm going back to bed.

...coffee done, off to bed now.