My partner and I argue a lot, usually due to two things – 1) I do things without thinking that could affect our family and 2) when faced with an argument, I usually end up crying, screaming or become mute.
Obviously, I don’t want to be like this. I find it hard to take others into account when making decisions, and usually don’t talk about them as I know the response is going to be negative. I don’t know why I do it, but I continue to do so even though I know it is going to end up in an argument. I need help with thinking things through better and openly discussing them.
I hate arguing with my partner, and feel backed into a corner when we do and I lash out. I hate that I can’t respond and can’t think of things to say, which often ends up with him getting frustrated with me.
I wish I knew why I did all of these things, and I need to find a way to change my pattern of thinking.