Feeling very raw

[wakeupandsmellthecoffee]

Where to start
Been on MN for years
Five o'clock tonight I was heating up the oven ton
Put pizzas on for tea
By 545 I was out the door marriage over
Currently sleeping on friends sofa
Well trying to sleep
Howe the hell did it get so bad that you put up with so much helll
Can't believe I'm in this situation

So sorry luv what actually happened? Have things been bad for awhile?

Shit.
what happened?

Things bad for years
He wasn't happy for ages
To be fair neither was I
No One else involved
I just feel sick scared and frightened
He just text
I said I thought it best to give us some space as I didn't want to argue or fight
I feel so sad for my ds
He is 17 yrs old and no child should ever hear that his father hates him And doesn't like him or respect him
This was the straw that broke the camels back

Hi. That sounds awful.

Where is your son?

He is upstairs at friends place with me
I'm on the sofa

I'm glad you're both safe and secure. You can spill it all out on here, if you want. But you also must be tired and need some sleep.

True I do want sleep
But he is texting me
I don't want to argue with him as an argument is something where you have a discussion where some one wins and some one looses
I m just done
27 years down the drain
I have an amazing fantastic caring son and I love the bones of him
I will not allow myself to be weak just because I am scared of what will happen next regarding housing
I do not love his father
I cannot believe a father Can say that to his son
This is by far the hardest thing I will have to go through
I will not let my ds think I don't love him by taking the easy route out
Jesus ''tis us hard