Blah. Basically been single for 11 years, prior to that had totally useless exh, after divorce had sometime fwb who blew hot & cold, we had great sex, were great pals, he did great periodic disappearing act (claimed to be in love but I suspect he's a bit of a player + has commitment issues & is generally adorable giant child). Fed up w his fuckwittedness so now no sex, no nothing. My adult daughter sometimes walks 3 miles to deliver her beloved lunch. I cannot fathom as have never had anyone who would pee on me if I was on fire. And it makes me sad.
I'm a nice person, foremost. Try to be cheery, enjoy helping people. Take care of myself, sometimes great hair, am told I'm pretty (fwb gushes about this, or would if I was speaking to him). But no-one wants me. No interest from male population whatsoever. Occasionally men smile at me, but probably no more than they would at random seagull. I briefly tried OLD but no luck. As am reasonably attractive I think it must be shite personality. Exh (granted he was very verbally abusive) told me no-one would want me, once they got to know me. I feel that's cursed me. I'm in my early 50's and just sad, sad, sad about decades of me alooooooone.
Just blah.