I have NC'd for this.
When me and DH first moved in together- 2.5ish years ago- I found a website called chaterbate in his internet history. I hit the roof, he closed his acct blah blah.
Around 4 weeks ago, I found a folder in his drop box called 'recovery' with images of loads of naked women. Not porny pictures, but photos that actual women had taken. I kicked off again, he said it was someone at work had done it for a joke. Deleted them. I went back on to the drop box to get them from the bin on there as I was going to report this man for sending photos without the persons consent. When they had been restored, they went into a 'recovery' folder- making me think he's recovered them himself from the bin.
Last night. I'd called asleep on the sofa. Woke up and DH was nowhere to be found. Heard a noise from the kitchen so went in to find DH with his knob out watching porn having a wank.
He absolutely shit himself. I went berserk.
Bit of background is my ex used to sit and compare me to porn stars all the time. Saying I'd never be as thin or as pretty as them and that I had crap boobs etc... he would say he'd rather have a wank than sleep with me.
I asked DH the other week following in from a mn thread I believe, if he wanked after the initial chaterbate incident a couple of years ago. He swore blind he didn't and I was away on holiday for a week 2 weeks ago and he swore that he waited for me to come back.
Now it's not the wanking itself I'm fuming about, it's the hiding in the kitchen when I was asleep, going incognito on his phone etc etc. We've been doing a 'what is your fantasy' thing the last week or so and mine is that I want to watch porn with him and he won't. He said he doesn't like it and doesn't feel comfortable with it. This is another thing I'm annoyed about that I fucking caught him watching it last night.
I'm angry, sad and feel sick all at once. I don't know if I'm over reacting 