Hope this is the right place to write this!
I've been with dp for 10yrs over this time we have had 2 children and he's brought up my eldest since she was 2 so she sees him as a dad. I havent been happy for a very long time it's hard to explain but I left a emotionally abusive relationship and he was just there we had been friends for years I wouldn't say close ones but he suddenly was around a lot helping with everything and in my fragile state it was nice to have someone about being kind. Anyway we ended up getting together he was incredibly clingy but I put it down to him never having a girlfriend before. warning bells should have rang when he wouldn't stop pestering me for sex when I wasn't ready ect but it didn't as he was nice the rest of the time!
So here I am 10 yrs later with 3 children working unsocial (nights) hours, while trying to be a house wife during the day. He does nothing but nag me for sex and if I say no he acts like I hate him and makes me feel guilty. He rings me constantly and even when he knows I'm with friends he still calls me to the point I just switch off my phone! When I say I'm with friends this means round a neighbours having a cuppa. I don't go out places unless it's for family stuff and when I'm going to them he makes my life a misery before hand as I swear in his head my brother is some kind of threat. He is good with the kids and obviously looks after them while I work over night but wouldn't think of doing homework with them or anything like that's or even clean up for that matter. Over the years there have been so many times I've tried to end it but he makes me feel bad and I back down back into the same shit after a week of him "trying to change".
For example this week I lost it said he had to go ect. He was like fine I'll go if I don't make you happy but then messed about to the point the kids got home and he starts telling them mummy's making him leave ect and upsetting them and he's crying and they start telling me to not make him go and I end up backing down! I wish I wasn't so bloody weak but I am. I just don't know what to do! He's now acting like nothing happened and I feel dead inside. To add to this there's his mum who gets Involved in everything if he can't get hold of me he calls her all worried so I have the pair of them on my case. be honest I don't know if I can survive on my own I wouldn't be able to do the job I'm doing now and I have a lot of bills that I'm not sure how I'd afford them. There really isn't any point worrying about that is there though as I will never get to that point as I'm to pathetic to get to not back down! I just don't know what to do!