I'll try not to drip feed...
I've recently been through a "break up" I you like. Trying to be vague, but the people who have gotten me through have made me see that it was a destructive, abusive friendship. I was actually suicidal for a few weeks (happened in May), but I'm getting there now.
I've recently connected with another school mom. We have so much in common- the same outlook on life, and a lot of the same experiences. I'm just so scared! After the sudden end of the friendship in May, I'm scared to even start to make new friends. I'm scared I going to start pushing people away. I know it sounds dramatic, but it really was "that bad".
I suppose the questions I asking are:
How do I stop myself from being shit scared when making new friends?...and
How do I develop this new friendship without looking like one of the "needy" friends that people are always Aibu-ing about?
I haven't even NC'd for this, but I don't even give a shit.
Not even my DH knows what to do with me 😁
The first time the "new" friend and I had a deep-and-meaningful, I came home and self-harmed. It scared me that much.
Forgive me if I'm jumbling.