I've tried to write this a couple of times, I'm not really sure what I want from this thread but I don't have anyone to talk to IRL.
I have a lovely DH who I adore and who adores me. I have no doubts that we are solid. I cannot, and do not want to, imagine life without him.
So why the hell have I developed a ridiculous crush on a co worker?
This guy is nothing like I usually go for, he's too young, too much of a lad and smokes, none of which I find attractive.
But where we work we're very informal, there's lots of banter and general piss taking. It's pretty male dominated and actually fun as far as work goes. I thought I had a normal level of feelings for this guy until he revealed he was job hunting which is when this damn stupid crush started. Now he's handed in his notice and I reckon I've got about 3 more shifts with him before he leaves. I'm actually really upset that he's leaving, can't stop thinking about it/him.
Ultimately I guess this will fade when he goes, which won't be a bad thing, but right now I don't want him to leave. I'm driving myself mad with these stupid teenagery feelings and I'm nearly fucking 40.
I need an almighty kick up the arse don't I?