sorry for the really long story but basically i am massively in love with a man, well call him Scott.
I met him through mutual friends last summer, and he asked me out a couple of times, and i was a bit nervous to go out with him as i didn't know him very well. Anyway, we ended up going out with the group a lot and spending time together, and I spept with him a few times.
On the last occassion i slept with him, we were very drunk and the next morning he got up and left to go to work (we were at his house) and when i got up i was runing really late for work myself. I noticed that through the night i had got my period and there was some blood on the sheets. I KNOW i should really have attemted to clean this up but i was really going to be late for work and at the time was on a bit of a warning for lateness so really couldnt be late..
Anyway, next thing was i called him and asked him if he wanted to meet up for a drink (few days later) and basically he said no. He then barely spoke to me apart from when he had to. I see him a lot as we have the same friends, at least once a week. We have seen each other a lot more recently, just as friends and always 'in the group' never on our own. We get on very well, and the other night we were all out and me and him went back to his and i ended up staying the night, but i slept in his bed and he slept on the sofa.
AND there is a large age gap and one time he told me he had a bit of an issue with it as i am a lot younger than him. He knows that it does not bother me.
The other problem is that one of his best friends and i are very close, and he recently admitted he was in love with me. He and Scott have been friends for years and i think scott may even think something is going on with me and him, but there isnt. Also, the other guy makes comments that he thinks the age gap is too big..
Also, scott has been seeing other people. I havent even kissed another man since him.
I dont know what to do. I thought that over time i would get over him but i cant. I am so in love with him it is really getting me down. I dont know what to do. I dont even know what i am asking here i just really need to talk about it. Unfortunately some of the people he has been seeing are friends of friends so i cant really talk about it with anyone! Do you think maybe he just went off me? was using me? it was the period incident? or the age gap? is it my DS that is the problem? (he never realy asks about him but seems interested when i talk about him..)
If anyone has any advice i would really appreciate it. I feel so lost and stupid.