Been with dp 10 years, about to have our 1st Baby in a few weeks.
I know you're all going to say ltb but I just dont feel strong enough I love him and am comforted by him so much he has been the only thing I have known really as i met him when I was just out of school. We tried for a year for this baby but he has made the whole pregnancy pretty miserable for me, I have never trusted him with other women but when I was 6 months pregnant I found messages to another woman on his phone some of which telling each other they love each other and some sexual content. Had major second thoughts then and as I didn't want to be a single parent and because I can't imagine life without him I let him stay after him begging for forgiveness and swearing to never speak to ow again. He pays 70% of rent/bills and I pay the rest we both have about the same amount of disposable income, him maybe a little less but he has brought our baby nothing. He drinks although not loads every single day but denys having a problem even though he used to and alchoholism runs in his family. Had an argument recently over him lending family members money but not providing which upsets me massively as I thought this baby was what he wanted just as much as me and he's left. I'm not sure if he will come back, he has no other place to go. I know he hates me- why else would he treat me like this? I just can't let him go and feel so sad for our baby and myself actually, this wasn't the life I had planned for myself.