Hi every1 i really need some advice please. How it all started 8 months ago i was on the ipad which belongs to me & my partner i was looking up some recipes for our 9 month LG anyway i was on google and lots of pop-ups came on screen so i backed out of google went back on to it but couldnt find the page i was on so i thought that id look on the history as it would be there so i did i seen a list of things but a few things stood out and it was things my partner had been searching it was stuff like Porn, Escorts in the local area Meet & Fuck & Sex with no strings after about 3/4 weeks i confronted him he denyied it & said im senile & that i need serious help etc he got extremly defensive and he just left it i really wanted to talk about it though i know that most men watch porn but im really against it due to reasons and i told him id rather be single than with some1 who watches it anyway he said its not him etc but there is only him with the password. Since then i dont trust him to do anything or go anywhere as my mind automatically races. I went to the docs to shut him up the doctor said im not senile and its not inbmy head as i seen it etc so my boyfriend went on 1 because the doctor said that. Ive tryed to forget but its not working.. Also this is a bit personal but need advice. Recently ive noticed that before we have sex he gets himself hard & doesnt let me do it any more he always does it. My confidence has totally gone. I feel like a shell and not a person i think its because i dont do it for him anymore or he knows that i dont turn him on he trys doing it on the sly in bed but im not stupid i know when the bed is moving.. also when we have had sex ill go toilet whatever and then he will play with himself & cum again yeah only a tiny bit comes out but why does he do it??
I cant talk to him about it as he gets really defensive and refuses to talk or her will say its in my head i need serious help.. i dont trust him or anything.
He has started starring at other females whilst we are out & yea i totally understand that he is a male but he does it right in front of my eyes then denys it and says im seeing things which i know im not at all. He has totally knocked my confidence. I cant kick him out as its his house and if i leave with our LG then we will be homeless and im not doing that.. I juat really need advice or anything.. i really appreciate all ur advice & comments THANK U ALL SO MUCH X