I've been single for four years after separating from my exH. Divorced now and it's fairly amicable.
I've had a few dates in this time and have had a long relationship with a FWB (it's complicated, we are good friends and unlikely to go further) and I feel I am ready for a long term relationship. I miss the companionship of living with someone.
I have had a series of dates that have not gone further the first one. Take this week. I matched with someone on tinder and we exchanged lots of text messages prior to our date. We knew each other from school, vaguely, although that was 20 years ago. One of my friends knows him well as described him as "absolutely lovely, but shy."
Date went really, really well. He kissed me very passionately and said he had been wanting to do that all night. We had so much in common and couldn't stop talking. He asked me for another date and it all felt great.
Second date was meant to be last night and his texts had tapered off to nothing from Friday evening. Anyway, he sent me a message on Saturday to say he now couldn't make it out and maybe we could go out again later in the week.
It's a blow off, right? I feel really sad about it. I really liked this guy. And it's worse that it went so well on the night and have so much in common. I have concluded that I am just terrible at dating. How could I read it so wrong?
But mainly I just feel really sad about it all. I love my children but find being a lone parent really lonely. I'm not looking for a replacement parent for them, but someone for me really.