Lonely and sad

[Evie16]

Hi
I don't know where to start to be honest. I feel like my marriage is over. My husband and me don't talk, I try to talk and he doesn't respond so I repeat what I say thinking he mightnt have heard me, but he turns on me like a dog and says stop repeating yourself and I don't answer stupid f@#king questions. I spend 90% on my own with my 2.5 year old daughter. I have to beg to get a bit of attention so I don't bother anymore. He only bothers when he is drunk or looking for sex. I'm six months pregnant and I just want to leave. I can't take the verbal abuse anymore I'm called c#$t most of the time. I had bad depression after my daughter and after losing three family members in 2 years. He constantly tells me I'm cracked or nuts. I can't raise my voice or stick up for myself. I walk on egg shells. I'm hurt and very lonely. I don't know what to do. I'm very close to packing up and leaving.

I think you definitely should pack up and leave. Do you have somewhere to go? Or better still, can you make him go? This is no way to live your life and no way to bring up your children. It sounds horrendous and poisonous. You do not have to stay and put up with this life.

You're responsible for your own andour young daughter's happiness. It's hard to make a available break and to step into the unknown so per make an escape plan. Once you respect yourself and realise you deserve more things will become more positive and you'll be less afraid to make the change. Good luck whatever you decide to do.

he sounds appalling, Evie16, really dreadful as a partner, and what kind of role model for your DCs?

You deserve much more than being called names by your partner - anyone does. you have no voice in that relationship anymore.

Try and find the courage to leave him.

Was there a tipping point in your relationship, when it all started going TU??? His behaviour is appalling but, all to common having read a lot of similar threads of late

This is no way to live...you are in a living nightmare o/p. Can you get away, move in with family temporarily until you have the baby? If not, then you need to contact Women's Aid and get some seriously urgent help.
Living with someone so abusive will compromise both your physical and mental health and what good will you be to your children if you're too ill to look after them?