I rang earlier this evening as it is our 'day' to talk. However, she was not back yet so spoke to S/Father. He basically told me that she was very low and he was finding her very hard to deal with. He told me not to discuss work with her (We work in kind of interlinking jobs), as it was bringing her down. Told me I must keep it light and not discuss any 'heavy' topics at all.
He said similar a few weeks ago, before christmas, but after having DS to stay with them she seemed much better. Mum and I are close, however, things got a bit strained with my step father when she was diagnosed with her breast cancer last year. She is fully recovered from that now, physically.
S/F said that I said something to her a few weeks ago which has sunk her really low. I don't know what the hell I said to her. I don't think it is the pregnancy. I can't recall saying anything to her about, well anything really. SF didn't actually know what I had said to her, couldn't be more specific. He has told me not to tell her he has told me this, as she will be cross, so I can't ask her either.
I kind of feel that he is putting me in a difficult position. Mum hasn't sounded low as such I don't think but I have been caught up in what is going on here atm, as awful as it sounds. The only thing I picked up on earlier was about when DS asked to talk to her, I got back on the phone and told her he wanted to talk to her 'oh he probably thought it was grandpa'. She has been very down on how DS feels about her since his accident last year, which, BTW, as I have posted before, she still blames herself for.
I can't bear the idea that I am making my mum unhappy. But I feel that my SF has put me in an unfair position. I am not the most sensitive soul and I do tend to go around hopping with my foot in my mouth more than I would like. But I don't know what I have done. She is coming to stay in a few weeks and we are having a nice day out together, so perhaps we can talk a bit then. I don't even really know what I am hoping to achieve by posting this, I just need to offload.