I posted before about the lack of intimacy in my relationship. It's been 5 weeks since anything.
I did a shit thing and kissed a friend. It happened once and I felt awful, told him, cut that friend out my life. He called me every name under the sun for days, smashed things, called my father and told everyone on social media I'm dirty and a total slag etc: I'm not. I made a mistake after months of rejection. One I've paid for.
Two weeks later nothing has improved. He doesn't come home when he says he will, he's nasty to me, zero intimacy. He can get aggressive and knows how to stick the knife in but not physical. My confidence has gone. I'm living in limbo. He laughs at the fact my mother died.
I need to leave. I out earn him significantly and our rented flat is one I found for us. I can afford it alone and he can't. But I have an insane work project until September. I can't cope with stress until then.
Just ugh. I'm lost.