For the last four years I have been with a man who I believe is abusive. He has been vile to me to the point I have considered ending it all. He has isolated me so much I have no one. My so called best friend has completely cut me out of her life...Im angry with her...to be honest she is using my relationship with him as an excuse as she has done this before when she finds a new friend. But....it hasn't helped, the way my relationship is. My friend thinks I didn't care about her anymore but I was stuck...if I called her in a different room he'd say we were "up to something"..if I called her in the same room he would talk nonstop in the background so I couldn't hear her. I don't think she realises just how much i'm controlled. Maybe because it isn't normal! I have no me time at all...I went for cbt and ended up in tears at the end of every session when the counsellor asked me what I do for me...im not allowed to have any me time. Im not allowed to use my laptop, my phone, read a book. Please tell me what im doing wrong here? If im in the toilet too long, the bath too long he makes me get out. Example, tonight he had a bath and I was downstairs, he texted me asking for a glass of milk. I couldn't reply, I have no credit. I shouted up the stairs id be up soon, he was arsy so I went up to find out why. He shouted at me about the milk despite there being a big bottle of juice beside the bed. So I went back down for the milk not wanting to antagonise him. I came back up with it, he shouted at me again "why you being an arse with me" I said I wasn't, I just brought what he asked for. No, he STILL had to argue with me. It IS PATHETIC...unbelievable probably...and that's where I am...No sane, rational person would believe what im saying, I have no one anymore...I want out...but im not strong enough. I am so tired of being shouted at, but I cant prove a thing. Im only on mumsnet now because he has left in a strop because I couldn't sleep...that's all it takes.