I think this is it. The end.

[FeministKilljoy]

It's been 11 years of ups and downs and I think tonight is the last down. I want to cry my eyes out but it's not coming. I'm so angry I could beat him with a brick and I'm so sad I could....nothing. There's nothing. I'm in such a jumble I think I've just wimped out of speaking to him and written it down here.

You have to leave him,if not for you but your dd.

Hi OP. Thats sounds horrible. I hope you are managing to get some sleep and can do some thinking tomorrow.

Well I regret posting now but there we go.

Why do you regret posting ? It's ok to be angry and hurt and to tell people about it

I assume he apologised? It's not enough, he sounds vile to your daughter. You won't let her down by leaving him, but you might by staying. He can't call her a fucker - that's emotional abuse

You are me.
Laying in bed after yet another day of being told how useless and incompetent I am. Worthless. Thick. Ruining his life.
Yet I can't bear to leave because the idea of having to share my daughter with him makes me sick. I'd rather be miserable for life then always worry he will try and take her from me. That's his constant threat.

I've never felt so hated. So hopeless and so numb all at once.

I'm 32. I have so much life ahead of me, but if I spend it here, it's looking pretty dim.

I hope you guys can find the strength to get out, because I don't know if I ever will. X

For the sake of your DD please leave him. His language towards you both is unaccepted whether drunk or not.

Don't let her think this is how a man speaks to his partner otherwise she'll learn from your example.

(((((( to you)))))

I'm sorry there are several of you on this thread going through this.

You deserve better. And I think you have what it takes to carve out a better life for yourselves and your children.

Sending love and wishing you strength.