ok.... Ive been sat up most nights reading threads on whats going on with me written by others, sat alone, while he is in bed and im alone, again. As always.
We have been together for years now, we have a beautiful daughter harriet who is almost 3. I knew he had an older daughter and thought WOW this guy has kept in his pants all these years, me and harry must be special, but a week before harriet was born i found out from someone else he had another 3 kids he isnt allowed to see and he has washed his hands of. 3 to 3 diff women. So that hurt, but i was too busy i think with a newborn that it slid. Then the sex ground to a halt. It was never regular but now it was non existent. One night I found he hadnt come to bed and so went downstairs to find him masrubating infront of the tv on the phone to a woman. It ruined me. He wasnt even sorry. I asked him to come to bed but he would rarther be downstairs than upstars with a woman who would do anything to please him! Well i plodded on, arguments here and there, but now, we never speak, if we do its one word answers. He now has bought 2 new dogs and will laugh and play with them, kiss and hug them in front of me, when I say you dont kiss me or hug me, oh get a grip, how sad your jealous over an animal. We havent kissed hugged or had sex now for about 4 months and im crying alot. When we sleep in the same bed i dont sleep as im thinking he is right there and i cant touch him! No hugs, nothing! Im so so alone and its always just me and harry, and she has started to notice, she will say daddy loves the dogs. I just dont know if there is any hope or what am I still doing here, im sorry if its all over the place, its how my life is right now, well for the past 2 years!