Seperation

[Ukjoner96]

Separated from husband miss family unit
Hi all , I need some advice urgently .
I left husband 2 years ago , have 4 children , the eldest stayed with him . We get on ok , I see my son once a week . I have been on and off with someone for 12 months , he loves me but not sure how I feel . Found I'm pregnant (9weeks) we went away for the weekend my 3 children and nephew , there was an argument between my son partner and nephew one night , obviously I stuck up for my son , in my partners upset and anger he went for a walk , messaged my son and told him I was pregnant ( little did I know my nephew knew as well because my partner messaged him the week before wanting advice)
This among other things has made me pull away from him !!
I am missing my family unit , missing being all together as a family holidays Xmas etc ... How do people move on from this and stop feeling guilty for no longer all being together 😩

No , wasn't planned , I had to have coil out as I'd had some problems , was waiting for period to come 2 months after to have another one put back in . We had been careful 🙉 not sure how I feel about partner , think this guilt thing just makes me push him away and just want to be on my own !! 😒

The children and myself not being together , not being there when my eldest comes home from work/college not all being there Xmas eve to put presents out Xmas morning etc not having family holidays and things x