Newly separated and feeling down

[bobby2]

I have been alone now with dd (2 and a half) for about a month and just so fed up, At first I was excited to be rid of him but now feel guilty and lonely, I don't want him back but just feel flat really and the harsh reality if sitting in by myself at the age of 38 forever is really bleak.

It's early days. You are bound to feel low. You will slowly build up a new life, just takes time.

Thankyou, I know in my heart that is true, but I am putting on a brave face for everyone, my folks, cos they are so proud of the way I've handled things (the break up) while my Mum is desperately ill with the big C. Everyone at work is applauding me for carrying on like a trooper, I have lost 2 stone from stress so everyone is telling me I look fantastic (the ONLY good thing to come out of this), yet inside I feel like screaming to everybody that I am not coping and my DD asks me 7000 times a day "Where's my Daddy?" or "I want Daddy". Sorry but I need to let this out somewhere.