In January I started chatting to a guy on an online game we both played, just easy banter and having a laugh at first, he never hid the fact he was married. Then he started asking more probing personal questions, nothing sleazy or sexual just things that really made me think about the answer before replying. I felt intellectually challenged and I liked it.
You know what's coming next I'm sure.... over the following weeks the conversations did move over to being more flirty and sexual in content... I felt guilty but I was hugely flattered and attracted to him (as much as you can be to someone you've never met).
Anyway, we "argued" over something so innocuous I can't even remember what it was now and in Feb I blocked him, at the time I was really upset, it actually felt like the end of something real, which my rational self knows is a load of bollocks.
Fast forward to now - I'm single and online dating, I've met a few nice blokes (and a few idiots) but I just don't get that spark from them and I've realised I'm looking for what I felt talking to him. Again even though I know in my head that it wasn't real as the person I was emotionally attached to was a figment of my imagination.
So my questions are (1) How can an intelligent independent woman in her late 40s get so emotionally involved in such a short space of time with someone she has never met? and (2) How do I move on and stop comparing real life men with what is effectively a phantom?
It's doing my head in!!!!