I think i trust my husband, but sometimes, small things would cause my attention, for his female colleague, start from he start to talk about her all the time, then i feel slight worried, soon, there's more and more signs,for example, he told me he is going go drink with a friend which is a guy, but when he was leaving the house, he said"they are waiting", I was wondering who are they, while i was thinking it is must be her, then about mid night, i called to ask if he need me to help to book taxi with app, then he told me in very unnatural voice, said she is there too. he came back drunk told me his company talking about this girl has gossip with a staff which is very bad. the next day, he said he doesn't remember gossip thing, and also, he said he didn't tell me she is there coz i would jealous, but he said again he told coz he did said they are waiting, they means there someone else. recently i told him i am back to my mum's with baby for a week, he seems very happy, then yesterday he said he is going to travel, if i am home, i am welcome to go with him, i said yes, i will, then he got really surprised and said, he thought i would be in my mums place by that time, i said no, i will go after that then there fight, he said i am jealous...then we had a fight. i need to fix myself, i love him and my family.