My DH is horrible to me. I don't need advice per we, just need to get a small portion of it off my chest I suppose. I think I'll have to end it. Feel so sad for the children, who adore him, and afraid of what he'll do if I do end hit, and need to sort finances etc. We have debts and I currently have no income.
I don't know who is 'to blame' anymore. I have been hard to live with iin the past due to depression/anxiety, but I've been pretty OK for years now and he still becomes obviously enraged by me multiple times every day. If I query the, he just rants at me for a long time. He twists everything I say into a criticism of him or to show I don't consider him.
He says horrid thighs and then pretends nothing has happened afterwards. He tries to Gert me to do things for myself and then turns on me when I actually do them. He'd argue anything. He constantly feels hard done by, but I can't see that he is. I can't talk to him. He twists everything and actually believes what he's saying. He genuinely thinks I treat him badly and ii am crazy.
Much of the time I wonder if I AM crazy.
My next step is to gain more financial independence. I don't know what comes after that. I love him, although I dislike him. Where has the man I married ten years ago gone? Is it all my fault as he says? My mental health iisnt great so it's possible.